Monday, June 22, 2009

Goodbye high school...

Even though it’s nearly a month since I became a high school graduate, every now and then I get the urge to leap out of my chair and shout ‘SHAZAM - I’M DONE!’ This is largely because the knowledge that I have finished high school keeps hitting me in waves of realization, almost on a daily basis. I keep wondering how I can be done with such a large chunk of school, of time, of life!


More specifically, where did the time go? I keep asking myself whether the time passed quickly or sluggishly… and I’ve found that this question is difficult to answer. I definitely remember the months of class, homework, tests, and lunch periods, and how they would seem to stretch on endlessly. But now, looking back, the past four years are starting to seem like a blur that came and went with a few blinks, some sleep deprivation, and a bit of studying.


On top of all this, the end of my year was particularly crazy, something I know contributes to these feelings. The last few months of school were a mad time of staring longingly through windows at sunny days and crazily cramming several years’ worth of material for exams into my already-filled brain. I’m starting to wonder if this stretch of time simply disappeared into some sort of vacuum… perhaps a black hole? I really have no idea what happened to the entirety of May and most of April.

And then there’s the fact that I did not graduate. I mean, I have a diploma sitting next to my desk and have technically completed high school, but I did not attend my school’s graduation ceremony, did not wear a cap and gown, and did not do the weird little flip-the-tassel exercise. The decision behind missing my graduation is complex and already known by many of my close friends, but in a nutshell, an event that I dearly wanted to attend happened to be scheduled for the same weekend as graduation and I chose a trip to Boston over a walk across a fancy stage.


Having said this, I suppose it’s no wonder that I feel like high school never really ended; there are clearly plenty of reasons. And, yet, at the same time, it seems that the high school part of my schooling actually ended months ago - back when I made my decision to attend CU. As soon as a deposit was mailed off to one school, and letters saying “Will not be attending” were mailed off to others, in all reality, one foot was already out of the high school door.


Going along with this notion, I want to share a fairly interesting phenomenon that I have been a part of recently. In the days when social networking programs were rarely used… or non-existent, I imagine you began your first day of college surrounded by a great number of strangers. Perhaps you had friends who were attending the same school, but it was probably rare that you had very many acquaintances before Day One of the college experience. However, the world being as it is now, this is certainly not the case anymore.


In a moment of procrastination before school ended, I logged on to Facebook and decided to search “CU: Class of 2013” for any group I could find. Let me tell you, I certainly found what I was looking for, a group of hundreds of students-to-be, all excited to meet each other. Since that time, I have founded a group for my dorm and started meeting dozens of people who will be my classmates next year. I’ve spoken with my roommates, people in the same programs as I, and people who have similar interests or hobbies. I’ve already met two wonderful people in person when they happened to be in town, and have plans to meet two more. When I show up at CU on move-in day, or even for orientation, I will already know a fair few of the faces around me. And, with such a BIG step in my life coming up, I’m willing to take any help I can get to make it easier.


In all, I hope I have made two points clear in this amalgamation of thoughts: First off, if you’re a recently-graduated-high-school-student who saw the end coming, mazal tov. If, however, you’re like me, still reeling from the shock of such a huge part of your life suddenly becoming history, you’re not alone. The summer provides a nice adjustment period that I am sure many of us will be using fully. Oh, and second, if you’re about to enter college (at CU or not), try using some of the internet’s lovely tools and start meeting people now. I can’t even begin to explain how it will change your way of thinking about your upcoming future.


Cheers.

:)


P.S. I still love comments! If you have any thoughts on ending high school, starting college, or transitioning into something new, please let me know.


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2 comments:

Unknown said...

Great blog.

I can't remember my graduation. I was 16, and I wasn't sure my parents would let me finish high school until right before graduation. The friends I should have graduated with didn't leave for another two years, so the ceremony seemed pointless.

I always wondered if I did the right thing. I gave up my last two years in school becuase "school" the institution bored me, but "school" the right-of-passage is something I know I missed. It's like I left intermediate school and when the rest of my friends were having boy problems I was working on extra classes. I feel like I skipped the "coming of age" and just ran off to college.

It didn't turn out to bad, but I didn't let my kids graduate two years early either.

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